Often times it seems as if creativity is an uphill battle, always fighting against my urge to just sit and do nothing or immerse myself in an activity that requires less energy like reading or going for a walk. I’ve learned, from both #creativelive #28tomake projects and my own personal projects, that two things encourage me to roll the boulder up the hill again and see my ideas either work or not work. They are first, patience, and second, expression. I am not a patient person at heart, and yet I find that being patient leads to so much more satisfaction in all areas of life. In art, there is a place for speed and rushed marks, but even in what seems like a mad dash work, if it is a master work, the level of detail and planning and care, and thus patience, put into it are what makes its seeming haphazardness all the more amazing. Little more than ten years ago, when I was in the grip if my technological addictions, I would have looked at a painting by Matisse and thought, sort of stereotypically, that is the work a child is capable of. Now, though, in working on projects that on the outset seem simple, along with time and experience, I find myself wondering, what would Matisse have planned in this, my project, to make it look effortless, to bring in all the perspectives and colors?
Technical ability, and creative ability… Inform each other, but to me are separate. Each must be developed on its own to create the whole of artistry in oneself, and I am blessed to have the chance to have friends and family that encourage such development. Expression for myself is meaning more and more illuminating those relationships through my art; instead of rote painting or drawing a sphere, over and over again, which I do to increase my technical ability, I allow myself to disclose emotion and thoughts through painting. Expression, and thus storytelling, become the goal; patience and practice the means. What this has accomplished for me also is an awareness and acute sense of just how important acceptance and non-judgment are, for if we only stay within our own little world, there is no opportunity for us to grow, and I have seen that in my art as well. The more I reach out, the more I risk in self disclosure, the more I listen and take in without reservation, the more I am filled with creativity, and the more I have within to express.
I almost dropped out of the #28tomake class due to circumstances this week. Thanks to this day off, though, I am continuing, and the questions provided for reflection are what I give credit for that to.